Status update

This is an important blog announcement. Normal blogging services will resume when I'm in a better mood. No one wants to read a sad boring depressing 'oh my god I feel so sorry for myself' blog! Hopefully feeling better soon. Until then, cya later

It's gonna get busy...

Today's been tough. it's been one of those days that really test you and I'm not sure I passed. Well, barely scraped a C possibly. Things aren't going to get any easier, in fact it's getting tougher each day. I think it's because there's so much happening at the one time that's making it tough. If it all happened one at a time I'd be fine, but just now there isn't one area of my life that doesn't have something going on. I need a break, a chance to relax and recharge. I just hope I don't burn out before I get to. Anyway, time to try sleeping, got a long day tomorrow. Cya later!
Posted from my new blackberry torch,woohoo! :D

Get the funk out!!

As you can probably tell by the last couple of posts, I'm in a bit of a funk these days! Let's face it my posts recently have been about as depressing as a week in bognor! Sorry for that but it's how I'm feeling. I really need to try and shake it off and I'm going to do my best to do just that. I reckon what I need is a good blow out! A big fun slightly drunken night of down right happiness! So if anyone has any ideas let me know. Cya later :)

Stuff, the trilogy

I'm tired. I should go to bed but I don't want to. If I still had my little copen I'd grab the keys, put the roof down and just go for a drive. I miss that. It probably sounds nuts putting the roof down at night but it's fantastic! Particularly on a night like tonight when the sky is so clear and the stars just shine. Its beautiful. It used to help me relax and just escape from the daily stuff for a while. As soon as I can I'm getting another convertible.
I'm not sure where my life is heading just now. On one hand things could go great or they could come crashing down, I just don't know. The other day I put up a fairly cryptic tweet and a really close friend miss-read what it was about. Thought it was about them. Just like that things changed. They felt let down, hurt. Luckily we managed to sort things out but it showed me just how easy it is to lose the people and things that matter to you. It's all so fragile yet at the same time I think it brought us closer.
Someone close to me is going through a lot just now. I want to be there for them but they won't let me in. There's nothing I can do about it. It's their choice. Maybe they'll change their mind but I doubt it. All I can do is be there if they need me and hope that they pull through. Their trying not to show how much they're hurting but I can see it. I hope they pull through. Anyway, enough depressing drivel from me, I really ought to go get some sleep. Just before I go though, this may be the last blog from this phone! Why? Because I'm hoping to get a new one in the next couple of days! A brand new Blackberry Torch! Can't wait! Anyway, until then, cya later!

If I could...

If I could I'd go back and stop it. I've taken on too much with this film and it's caused so many problems for the people in it. Is it worth it? I honestly don't know. I like the script, I should do seen as I wrote it, but I don't think now was the time to do it. There's more drama going on off camera than on! It's supposed to be fun and at the moment it's not. Ok, that's not entirely true. When we're filming,when the camera is rolling and we're recording it's fun. When I get the chance to capture footage and do some editing it'll be fun, all the drama between the different actors, the feelings, emotions, and conflicts that are hiding just beneath the surface are not fun! I love making movies but it should never be at the expense of hurting people and that's what's going to happen if it hasn't already. I just hope it turns out to be worth it and it all works out ok in the end. We'll see.
Cya later!