Your probably wondering who or what I'm talking about. No one in particular, just a small rant. Normal business will resume shortly. Until then, cya later
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Friday, 22 April 2011
Truth
The phrase goes "truth hurts". Everyone knows that. Sometimes hearing the truth can be painful. The truth that your not as good at your job as you thought you were. The truth that your big idea for the future just isn't going to happen. But the worst is when someone you thought you knew, someone you trusted, isn't the person you thought they were. That really hurts. It's a strange one though. It's not just the realisation that you've been lied to that hurts it's also the feeling of why didn't you notice before. What was it that made you so blind to the person they really were? Why did you think they were different? It's simple really, you trusted them. You had faith in them and the things they did. You believed what they told you. Why do people do that though? Why do they lie? I don't think its always a deliberate choice to not tell the truth I think that sometimes it's because they believe it themselves. They have spent so long telling the lies that they can't tell the fiction from the truth. They don't realise what they are doing or why. It's just become a part of who they are. They are lying to themselves. The saddest part though is, and I think this is a new phrase, truth is a hunter. Not just any hunter it's the best hunter. No matter how long if takes the truth will catch you sooner or later and it's then, when it's finally caught up to them that they will see just how lonely life can be. Because when the truth catches up to you and you turn to look for help, there will be no one there. All the people you lied to, the people you betrayed, they will be gone. It's then that your only hope is that someone will still care enough to help. But even if they do,you'll still lie to them too.
Your probably wondering who or what I'm talking about. No one in particular, just a small rant. Normal business will resume shortly. Until then, cya later
Your probably wondering who or what I'm talking about. No one in particular, just a small rant. Normal business will resume shortly. Until then, cya later
Wednesday, 13 April 2011
More random thoughts
I probably should start this with the most commonly used phrase on my blog "It's been a while since I updated this blog so here goes"
Well I've finally handed my notice in to my work and start a new job in a couple of weeks. Its a strange feeling at the moment. It still doesn't seem like I'm leaving. don't think I'll really believe it until that last day and i hand my pass back in. I'm not so sure about the place I'm moving to either at the moment. It just seems too good to be true.I'm not honestly sure if its were i fit but I suppose I'll find that out for myself soon enough. The people there all seem nice and i know quite a few folk who are either going ther or are already there. Maybe thats the problem. Maybe it would be better to be going somewhere that no one knows me and i can start fresh. who knows. I'm sure it'll work out in the end.
We started filming again this week and so far we've got the shots I wanted but there has been a few monstrous cock ups. mostly by me. I just seem to be doing so much on this at the moment its hard to keep track of everything and make sure its running smoothly so occasionally things slip through. Its good to see the cast again but it seems different this time around. not sure why or what it is but it just seems different. Not sure if its a good thing or a bad thing, guess I'll need to wait and see how it pans out. When I'm not filming or planning the schedule or emailing the actors and crew, or perhaps even organizing the make up girls, or contacting the local police to let them know we're filming, I'm editing. the edit is going well I think but there are a couple of things that are bothering me about it. First is that no one else has seen it yet. I like to have a second opinion on it. I love the way some of the scenes are looking and I also know where the faults and gaps are, but i think I've been looking at it for so long that I might be missing some things. I need a second pair of eyes to look over it for me but don't know who would have the time or the notion to do it. The first person I'd normally ask would be Joan but she doesn't want to see any of it until its finished and done. She wants to be able to sit down and watch it as a complete film the same as everyone else. The next person I'd normally ask is Mandy but she's so busy with things at the moment she wouldn't have time. I don't know who else to ask. Guess I'll keep at it and hope it works out OK. The other thing is the sound quality. Because we shot on two different cameras the sound quality tends to vary. it's not always noticeable but sometimes there's a lot of fiddling about to get it sounding just right. not great but good enough. i wish we had had a separate sound engineer for this. ah well too late now.
I'm tired. Constantly. I can't sleep though. but i need to try. time to head off to bed to close my eyes and hope i fall asleep for at least a couple of hours. Before I go I want to leave you with a really cheesy phrase I heard but that seems right to me. "Good friends are like the stars, you don't need to see them to know their there"
Cya later
Well I've finally handed my notice in to my work and start a new job in a couple of weeks. Its a strange feeling at the moment. It still doesn't seem like I'm leaving. don't think I'll really believe it until that last day and i hand my pass back in. I'm not so sure about the place I'm moving to either at the moment. It just seems too good to be true.I'm not honestly sure if its were i fit but I suppose I'll find that out for myself soon enough. The people there all seem nice and i know quite a few folk who are either going ther or are already there. Maybe thats the problem. Maybe it would be better to be going somewhere that no one knows me and i can start fresh. who knows. I'm sure it'll work out in the end.
We started filming again this week and so far we've got the shots I wanted but there has been a few monstrous cock ups. mostly by me. I just seem to be doing so much on this at the moment its hard to keep track of everything and make sure its running smoothly so occasionally things slip through. Its good to see the cast again but it seems different this time around. not sure why or what it is but it just seems different. Not sure if its a good thing or a bad thing, guess I'll need to wait and see how it pans out. When I'm not filming or planning the schedule or emailing the actors and crew, or perhaps even organizing the make up girls, or contacting the local police to let them know we're filming, I'm editing. the edit is going well I think but there are a couple of things that are bothering me about it. First is that no one else has seen it yet. I like to have a second opinion on it. I love the way some of the scenes are looking and I also know where the faults and gaps are, but i think I've been looking at it for so long that I might be missing some things. I need a second pair of eyes to look over it for me but don't know who would have the time or the notion to do it. The first person I'd normally ask would be Joan but she doesn't want to see any of it until its finished and done. She wants to be able to sit down and watch it as a complete film the same as everyone else. The next person I'd normally ask is Mandy but she's so busy with things at the moment she wouldn't have time. I don't know who else to ask. Guess I'll keep at it and hope it works out OK. The other thing is the sound quality. Because we shot on two different cameras the sound quality tends to vary. it's not always noticeable but sometimes there's a lot of fiddling about to get it sounding just right. not great but good enough. i wish we had had a separate sound engineer for this. ah well too late now.
I'm tired. Constantly. I can't sleep though. but i need to try. time to head off to bed to close my eyes and hope i fall asleep for at least a couple of hours. Before I go I want to leave you with a really cheesy phrase I heard but that seems right to me. "Good friends are like the stars, you don't need to see them to know their there"
Cya later
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